When Getting Up Starts To Become A Drag

Lately, it is getting harder and harder to get up at night, get dressed and travel to work. It feels so heavy just thinking that I would again be leaving my baby and see him in the morning before I go to sleep but for the most part, I feel so bad about having to leave him alone with a yaya when I know I can be more hands on in caring for him.

Well, those are the top reasons why I'm dragging myself off the bed for work, but honestly, there are a whole lot more, work and non-work related combined. If I would itemize them all, it will be a very long list and I wouldn't want to do  that as that will only make matters worse. Anyway, because I can not go on feeling like this while I study how finances would look like when I finally tender my 30-day notice (yes, I am planning to resign for a change of career), alongside Googling for home-based job opportunities and filing applications, I thought I might seek the help of the virtual psychologist. 

I found this site about leadership and management, http://www.lifehack.org,  and apparently it talks about motivation and inspiration. What I found interesting in one of the articles was on avoiding motivation. It mentioned something about organizing our lives so that we don't have to motivate ourselves. It also said something about starting to think about getting a new job if work is becoming a constant battle. 

Well, to me it made a lot of sense. Primarily we all find a job to earn money and support our finances and lifestyles. And because now a days, the high paying job requires a night shift and a sacrifice of holiday time offs, many of the job seekers especially the younger generation, choose to let go of the normal life in exchange to big time cash in their payroll.

 I must admit that I was one of those who chose to be in the industry where I am simply because it is the type of work that will give me a high salary and at the same time, a fast career progression. What I failed to consider then was someday I would become a mother who will be juggling the mommy and the professional role.That's part of why I am considering a shift in my career. I want to focus on my son's learning and development but at the same time, I still want to earn and meet the financial needs of our family. Although, a big part of me is pushing that I quit my job and become a housewife, a small part of me is still saying that as an independent woman, I need not lose my identity over being a plain homemaker as I can still do home-based jobs that can pay for the bills and the groceries. 

So that is pretty much what my plan is right now - find a home-based job and be a full time mom to  my growing child. It's just so funny that the only time a lot of things become clear and sensible is when getting up starts to become a drag. In fact, I wouldn't really think about it before, I will just go on auto-pilot and then work like a robot which is not healthy in any way. As for my home-based job hunting plan, lots of luck to me but I am feeling pretty good about it.